Hmmm...

Friday...
What to do???

It's horrible I got my paycheck today for this month and it sucked ass... This whole 'cutting' of classes for the summer is killing me. Oh well... Work is kinda ackward lately, now don't get me wrong I'm not talking about the kids... It's just oh well...

Changing the subject Vico is having a sibling!!! Yup!!!
I guess I've been taking good care of it. A couple of days ago I notice a new uuummm... whatcha ma call it? Something new is sprouting out of the ground. Ummm... trunk? Let's see... I dunno but it's a small sibling...

YAY!

Also this weekend(changing subjects again) I need to start looking for a new roommate since Lang's gonna be moving out in August. Great! Another headache, but oh well, I guess that's how it goes.

Well July's around the corner... I guess new challenges await me AGAIN!

hehe!
=P

No more "naps"

Dammit, I hate it when my so-called "20 minute nap" turns into a fucking 4 hour nap fest. Now I can't go to sleep and it's almost 3am. Hhhhmmmm...

Oh well, I guess my sleeping hours are gonna be messed up for the next couple of days...

On another note I have realized(well... ok so I already knew this but I've just been kinda lagging on it) that I need to cut my hair. I've been meaning to grow it a little bit but I'm getting tired of it. I dunno...

Looking all scruffy... AGAIN!



Hehe...

Oh man, oh man...

This sucks man, Spain got eliminated today by France... Booooooooooo!!!
Oh well, another 4 years wasted...

On a happier note my little bro's B-day was yesterday and like nothing he turned 9! Damn!!! It's kinda insane to think that I saw him for the last time 4 years ago. Also it's kinda insane to think that I came here 4 years ago as well and I dunno, I guess that's the way life is.

If someone would have told me about everything that has happened to me during the past four years I would have just laughed. I could have definitely believe some of it, but not all of it. I mean after all I know myself, and could have forseen a lot of it coming.

Oh man, oh man...
I gotta go fix David's pc.

Monday

Finally I went over to the Tenant's Union to have the letter checked and it's all set. I'm gonna give the landlord the letter along with the rent checks for next month and we'll see what happends. In the meantime I gotta start putting an ad to start looking for a new roommate...

Oh well at least I'm gonna be busy for the next couple of days, if not weeks.

Summer time is definitely a weird one for me at work. For one thing the whole rotation if so messed up that it just throws me off. I guess I just have to get used to it or something. MAYBE I'm just losing it and it's time to move on?!?
I dunno, I'm just having a problem with adapting to things right now.

Man I'm so sore right now, it's definitely fun to play soccer again, but I forgot also that it takes time to get the body back into shape... owie, owie, oooowww...!

MAn I'm all over the place!

A small thought...

What can I say?
We always have good times... we always have bad times... we always... hhhhmmmm... we are always comfortable around each other.

I talked to you on Friday and it was fun. It was ackward since I know it's probably the last time I'm gonna hear your voice in a long time... well ok so 2 months ain't that long, but it does feel like it.

It bring me joy to know that you are so happy, and I notice that just by listening to your voice. It's different, it's just, I dunno, it's just different. I'm happy everytime I hear it since I kinda understand why I fell for you the way that I did. It's ok, I mean I know we are not on the same page, but life it's sometimes that way, and all we can do is just accept it.

I know this trip will be good for you, and also I know that when you come back things will be different. You will be different, and probably I'll be different... adventures like the one you are about to embark do that. I dunno how this will go, but definitely I want to tell you that I will always be there for you, because my heart belongs to you.

Please be safe, and know that there's always someone who will always be waiting for you... my heavy heart...

I love you...
Bye.

Procrastinating...

Dammit!!!

It's already noon today and I haven't done anything...
I got to do a lot of shit today but since it's my day off I'm just chillin' at my house and not doing anything... hhhhhhmmmmmm...

Ok I will start to do what I have to do... enough is enough... or so they say, hah!

Outtasite (outta Mind)

"Outtasite (Outta Mind)"
by Wilco

I know we don't talk much but you're but you're such a good talker,
oh-whoa
Well I know we should take a walk but y'er such a fast walker, oh-whoa,
well alright

I know where I'll be tonight, alright
Outta mind outta site

Well O.K., I know you don't love me but you'll still be thinking of me,
oh-whoa
Well alright, I know you probably hate me, that's O.K. with me,
well alright

I know where I'll be tonight, alright
Outta mind outta site
Outta mind outta site

You don't see me now
You don't want to anyhow

Look out, here I come again and I'm bringing my friends
Look out, here I come again, I'll bring my friends, o.k. alright o.k.
alright

I know where I'll be tonight, alright
Outta mind outta site
Outta mind outta si-ite
Outta mind outta si-i-i-ite



---> Meh! hehe! <---

Old friends...

Man it's been a week of meeting old friends...
On the weekend I got to see an old friend who graduated with me from high school, and that was weird, I mean to find someone almost ten years later and FUCK! Ten years later, and almost what 2000 miles away from home?!?!?

WOW!

Hehehe, something that doesn't happend everyday.

Anyhow, today I also met up with Heidi, which I hadn't seen in oooohhh I dunno, about a year or so... Well maybe it's more like 9 months.... but either way my point is that I hadn't seen her in a long time. It was fun, just catching up and recalling the good old times... or so they seem now, haha!

Anyhow, it's good to see familiar faces which you thought long gone...


=P

Soap Bubbles

It's so funny how the simple things in life can mean so much. It the small things that make life seem a little bit more interesting, more vivid... it's the little things that make life what it is.

Lately there's been a lot of things that have reminded me of better times...

a certain scent...
a smile...
the sound of a familiar voice...
soap bubbles...

=o)

I'm feeling a whole lot better, at least tonite I do...

My Foot

the pillows - MY FOOT

Dare ka no sei janai, ki tzuiteiru
Yappari boku wa ima mo SUTORENJÂ
Hikari ni muragatte osoroi no yume wo mitemo
Igokochi warui dake

Kaze ni kieta RABU SONGU
Kabe ni hararenakatta POSUTÂ
Watashi sobireteru PUREZENTO ryoute ni kakae

Boku wa mada miteru, susumu tsumasaki wo
Ame mo mizutamari mo ki ni shinai ze
Sugu ni kawaku'n da
Itsu no hi ka tachidomaru no nara
Boukenka no you ni susume, my foot
Michi naki michi wo

Akogare no tobira no sukima kara
Nusunda PASUPÔTO ja mou muri sa
Machi wo nagitaoshite nekoronda yume wo mitemo
Munashiku warau dake

Yoru wo isogu FANDANGO
Sora wo tobu ki ni natta RÛSUTÂ
Sabaku de mezameta ESUKIMÔ to saikai wo chikai

Boku wa mada miteru, to-on no RAIBARU wo
Juuppo saki wo hashiru sono senaka
Boku ni niteru'n da
Itsu made mo akirame no warui
Chousensha no you ni hashire, my foot
Kakato wo narashite

Doko ni itemo MISUKYASUTO
Hitorigoto ga fueta ROSUTOMAN
Sasowarenai no ni kotowaru SERIFU wo oboete

Boku wa mada miteru, susumu tsumasaki wo
Ame mo mizutamari mo ki ni shinai ze
Sugu ni kawaku'n da
Itsu no hi ka tachidomaru no nara
Boukenka no you ni susume, my foot
Michi naki michi wo
Kakato wo narashite, ikou


--> The translation is here <--

The hardest decision...

It's never easy to have people understand why you decide this way... It's always a decision that haunts you for the rest of your life, you try not to think about it, but it's always gonna be there. The sole knowledge that you had to do it in 'benefit' of another person, and just because you believe it is the right thing to do.

Then again how do you or anyone else knows that it is the right decision? Are you basing your decision for someone else's sake or for yours? Is it because of past experience??

It is hard, and today I had to make that decision, and in conjunction with my mom we've decided not to put my granny on hemo-dialysis. This means that basically she's on her death bed starting today. Was it the right decision? I dunno, but she's in a comatose state and I feel she shouldn't suffer the same way my other granny did last year. It's better if she just goes peacefully.

It's never easy.

Sometimes I just wonder...

I ponder about a lot of things...

Everytime I go in to work I wonder and ask myself 'do I really know what I'm doing'? It's one of those things that I just wonder, because I do feel like a lot of time I just go in there and just wing it. I feel like I'm just playing around and not really do what I'm suppose to do...

It's kinda sad but that's just the way I feel sometimes... I sometimes get that feeling everytime a new session starts, and I dunno. Then again there's the times when parents just go up to me and congratulate me for the 'great' job that I'm doing... hhhhhhmmmm...

I can never take compliments well... I don't like them, I dunno... I've been hearing them all my life and I can never feel good about them. I just feel like I'm really not worthy of them. The reason I do things is not because I want to hear from others about how good it is, but because I just feel like doing them, or just because sometimes it just feels like the right thing to do...

Where do I stand???

A good question... a hard one to answer... hhhhmmmm...

I'm hungry... =oP

La Furia!!!

Oh yes!!!

Spain's in the second round, I love it! I like the way the team is playing. They are consistent and show a lot of heart, along with the technique. I love it!!!

La Furia!!!

Summer!

Well as this weekend comes to an end I gotta say that I feel like I'm ready to face whatever is thrown at me.

Back home things are not so good, my granny seems to be going down hill fast and I'm afraid she's not gonna make it past the next couple of months. I gotta face the fact that I'm not gonna be able to be there for my family when they will be needing me. It's hard but I'm afraid I can't do anything about it unfortunately.

Here things are looking pretty good. Work seems like it's gonna be fun, and I'm excited about this upcoming session. I'm happy about it. The whole landlord situation is kinda messed up but oh well, I know things will resolve themselves... or at least they have to one way or another. Meh!

Danielle is leaving on the 26th... I dunno... I miss her a lot, even thought... I dunno... Two months is not that much, but they do seem like an eternity. Oh well... I'm trying not to think about that too much, and lately I've been pretty good... hhhmmm... no I'm lying... it's hard.

Oh well...

=o]

Fun weekend...

Well it's been a loooooooonnnggg time since I've been able to have all the weekend to myself without worrying about working, and I gotta say that I've taken full advantage of it. For the past 48 hours I've been having non-stop fun. It's been so great that I even ran into a friend who we graduated together from high school... It was so random, but hey things do happend and it was so funny...

Randomness of life I guess...

=oP

Oh well, for now I'm just trying to keep myself up for another couple of hours since I got ppl coming over for the Brasil vrs Australia game... It's been a long mofo night. I wish I coulda slept a little bit, hehe...

Oh well... we'll see what happends... =o]

A ray of light!!!

Oh yes!!!

I went over to the Tenants Union and I found out that pretty much everything that my landlord has been doing is ILLEGAL... oh yes!!!

At least I won't have to worry about moving anytime soon... phew!

I dodged a bullet on that one... well almost, now I gotta set things straight and let them know that I won't comply with what they are doing because they are in effect 'breaking' the law. Let's see how that goes...

Oh well..

I'm out, I'm super tired...

=P

>_<

I miss you...

Is it frustration?

I'm feeling uneasy... A little bit hhhmmmmm... let's see, what would be the right word for it... --------> ... ... ... ...

I dunno, the thing is that whatever it is, is making me frustrated. Frustrated with myself, frustrated with my life, hhhmmmm... I need an outlet of some kind I guess. This week I'm having way too much time in my hands and it's killing me. I guess it's just a transition or something. The next couple of months are gonna be intriguing. A lot of things are gonna go down, and I guess that's the reason as to why I'm feeling this way.

Back home things are not good. My granny seems to be going downhill, and that is affecting my mom. Here I got the whole apartment situation, not to mention, I dunno...

Oh well, I guess there's nothing else to do than to just keep on moving. Because I will not accomplish anything by just feeling sorry for myself. Meh! I have a headache, I think I might be coming down with a cold...

=P

Oh well...

Cleaning the house...

Damn!!!

Finally after what seemed to be a never ending story I finished cleaning up part of the house... Man it was dirty!

Anyhow I'm glad that I cleaned the kitchen, the fridge, my room, and most of the bathroom... But I'm tired... Since there's a lot of changes going on in the house noone had bothered to cleaned it in a long time. Lang is moving out by the end of July so I gotta get on the 'finding a new roommate' situation AGAIN!

First I gotta slap the property manager a little(well not literally), since they are trying to walk all over my rights as a renter and force someone that THEY will choose to live in the house. Long story... anyhow I don't wanna write about that right now, I just wanna chill, make some food, drink something and watch re-runs of the world cup games... (yeah I couldn't watch them today because of work!)

I am happy the house is looking a lot more clean, hehe..

=P

The end of a session...

So another session came to and end today, and boy what a way to end it. There where ppl sick who didn't show up, and well I had to pull tricks from under my sleeve to make everything work, and somehow it did work out. Sure maybe it didn't go as smooth as I would have liked but hey man the job was done.

A tiring day indeed...

Oh well... noone said it was gonna be easy.

=P

Oh yeah and by the way I didn't loose my phone... someone found it at Acro..

=P

I'm tired... hehe...

Oh shit!!!

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
Fuck I lost my phone!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Hhhhmmmm...

=/

World Cup fever!!!

Oh yes!!!! I love it!!!

I love soccer... I love the competition... I just love the World Cup!!!!

I haven't felt so excited about sports since... well since the last World Cup, oh yes, the only difference was that I was back home. Oh well, I have to get my schedule set for this one...!

YEAH!

Spring coming to an end...

Well not the actual Spring time, just the 'Spring session' at Acro. This Saturday is gonna be the last day of it, and it is definitely a sad time... A lot of my kids are going away for the summer and might come back in the Fall so that's ok. But there's also the other bunch which is staying and either moving up or are not gonna be able to be with me anymore because my class schedule is changing...

=(

Oh well...

I've been at Acro for two years now and it never gets easy...

Pondering...

What can I say??? It's been a little bit over a week since Danielle left and it's been hard on me. I've been good at not trying to think much about it, but every once in a while it will hit me and a mix of feelings come around.

On Friday when I had a bad experience the first thing I did was call her and look for some comfort or just talk to her or something. It made me realize how much she meant to me, since she was always there for me and I could just get in touch with her easily to talk about stuff. Granted that she was not available at the time it was just one of those sinking feelings, but she returned my call the next day and it lifted my mood...

When I talked to her she sounded different... The sound of her voice reflected happiness... She didn't sound stressed, or bothered by problems... She sounded like if she didn't have any problems or as is all her problems had never ever existed, and that made me be even more happy for her. I gotta say that I had a lot of fun talking to her and listening to all her experiences this past week. For some reason it made me realized once again why I fell for her the way that I did... She's just this one amazing person which I truly am happy to know and blessed to have.

I never did answered when she asked but I do miss her a lot. Things are not the same without her and I really can't wait to see her again. It's so funny how she wanted to know if I had planned a couple of things that happened the last day that we saw each other... And no... I didn't planned them. I provided the material, but I didn't produced the final product, it was just one of those things that came about at that time.

It was one of those things that you can't make or plan, it just happened that way. Just like the way she said 'good-bye'... A spur of the moment... It's one of those things that was the right thing at the right time... It's a memory that will never fade away because it belongs to only you and I. It's a special moment captured in time...





=o]

Moments captured in time...

Memories... What are our memories? They are fragments embedded in our mind, our subconscious... They let us remember, they make us realizes that we are the way we are because we were shaped in our own unique way.

Pictures... What are pictures? A moment caught in time... A moment frozen forever in the limbo of life... They remind us of good times, or bad times... Times left behind, and for better or worse we can't deny that we enjoyed or suffer through them...

=o)

Just a bit of my mind left behind...

- G