Bouncing back

It's been a week since my granny died back home and it's been a tough week. I was lucky that I bounce back from that fairly quickly, and I guess the reason being that since I'm so far away it didn't affect me as much. Now on the other part, my mom and my bro have been devastated by this. I talked to the two of them and they are having a hard time both of them, and what makes it worse is the fact that everything that surrounds them pretty much reminds them of her.

See for me when my other granny died here I decided to leave pretty much everything behind and just moved on completely. I made sure I wasn't gonna bring with me anything that would bring back memories or any type of mementos. Sure it was tough, I mean I gave my life a full 180 twist and looked away. But they can't afford to do that, since they just can't...

I dunno... it's hard to foresee how this is all gonna turn out. I just hope that the recovery period is not gonna be a long arduous process for them. I know how that feeling is, and I really don't want them to go through the same, although they have the advantage that they have each other, as to oppose me that I was alone, although I made the choice to be alone.

Oh well...

Well see what happens.

So it is...

Today I got a call from back home. News of my granny passing away, and well... I dunno. I really can't write anything right now. I'm numbed by the news.

Rest in peace granny.

Looks like a winner!

Yay!!!

On another quick note, which I forgot to put out there, it looks as if we found a new roommate! Her name is Sayuri and she seems cool. I'm sooo relieved that the search is over and I don't have to worry about it anymore.

Now all I gotta worry about is the whole room swappin' situation which should start and soon as Lang starts moving out. Although she has to come back from Europe first and then I'll worry about it, oh well...

Anyhow I'm off to play UNO... with alcohol... hhhmmmm... I'm second guessing myself on this one now...

=oP

Procrastinating at home... AGAIN!

Yup, it happened again... I did nothing at all today. Yeah, yeah... I know I was suppoese to do a couple of errands and all, but oh well...

In a way I'm happy I just stayed a thome and didn't do anything, a lot of crazy things happend(from what I heard) and shit almost went down at work. Because what went down don't really affect, or involve me I won't go into details, but I gotta say that work is going to shit. I mean that place is on the verge of going downhill and it's a shame. I dunno, it's sometimes hard to describe and put things into perspective to outsiders... It's something that you gotta be there livin it, and seeing it to really understand... it's the personal 'drama' of the workplace...

Personally I rather just set myself aside and just watch it from the bench, but sometimes I can't deny the fact that it also influences me and involved me at the same time. It's a vicious circle and I guess it's what we all have to go through sometimes.

But enough about that, on a lighter, more brighter note I talked with Danielle over the phone tonight. =o) I gotta say that it was a pleasant surprise to hear her voice, I really do miss her, and even thought we only talked for a fraction of what we would 'usually' would, it was worth it. It's amazing that she's coming back on Sept 5th. One more month and a half... Time sure goes fast when you don't think about it that much.

I have been thinking about her a lot these past couple of days... I guess it's the whole running into ppl I've met throught her and just hanging out in the 'artsy' scene lately, that kinda makes me think of her, and just think to myself 'oh she would love to look at this' and 'I'm sure she would love to talk to this person about that'.

Oh well... anyhow, I', gonna wrap it up now. My roomie is having a somewhat interesting game of UNO and shots going on in the kitchen and it would be fun to join and check that out. Let's see how it goes...

Up's & Down's

Yeah this month has been pretty chill for most of the part. Sure it has had it's up's & down's but overall I think that it hasn't been too bad.

I'm still trying to recover from the fact that an asshole almost ran me over the other day(luckily I jumped off the bike in time), but I haven't had time to go get my bike fixed. I gotta admit that last Friday was a fucked up day.

Ah yes... the roommate situation... uuuggghhh... it has been hell, although there's one person who seems like is really interested in the place, hopefully it works out because I am really tired of looking for someone. I dunno, don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't like doing the work and all but it's just that some ppl just flake out, and don't even let you know wheter they have found something better or not. It would be all easier if ppl would just be more straight up about things and let you know.

The other thing about this is that because I want to keep the options open I haven't been able to get in touch with some other ppl. I dunno, I guess I should just take this more as a bussiness and just be less hopeful on other ppl. I dunno, it's a really hard thing to do even thought you would think that getting someone for a place is simple. In my opinion it is definitely easier to look for a place rather than to look for a new roommate.

Meh!

Oh well enought ranting about what's going on, I gotta get ready to get out of here.

I can't deny...

The fact that I still think about Danielle...
I miss her a lot, and yeah I know that she's gonna be back sooner that what it feels, and all that but(yeah there's ALWAYS a BUT)...

I'm afraid...

I'm afraid that when she comes back things will be weird, or I dunno...

She always says that the more you fear something, then the more probable that it might happen...

I try not to think about it, I just miss her a lot.

=o/

The search has begun...

For a new roommate, and man were there a lot of responses...

Within the hour of posting the ad for it, I had like 10 ppl contact me about it... Oh well it's gonna be fun looking for a new roomie.

=P

Letting out thoughts...

You know it's kinda hard some times to just let your thoughts out. For me at least I definitely believe that it's my biggest problem. Just trying to make things come out and express myself. I was wondering today, and kinda tried to make sense as to why I do this a lot, and it's hard to pin point why.

Maybe it's rejection? Shyness? Foolness? or maybe it's something that I just don't think it's that important so therefore I just let it go?

Hhhhmmmmm...

I dunno, maybe it's the whole, I wanna stay in a 'somewhat' neutral position about things, therefore I don't argue or let my ideas out from time to time. Then this brings the question, as to why I decide to remain neutral?

Hhhmmmmm...

I guess it's just a matter of going with the flow for me. I dunno... kinda weird I guess...

Just one of those thoughts...

=P

Fuckin' right...

Tequila hangovers are not pretty...
Oh hell noooo...

After consuming an excessive amount of tequila on Saturday night, I gotta say it took me a while(oohh like a day) to get on my feet. It was horrible...

You know you had a great, awesome... almost heavenly time, when the next day you feel like crap, with a 'i-wanna-die' headache, and evetytime you see or smell food all you think about is sticking your head inside the toilet...

Fucking right!

Damn you tequila!!!
=P