Things that you notice...

With time there are things that come to light that you notice. For instance today I have realize that I've been really grumpy for the past couple of days. But there was no real excuse for it, except for the fact that I was burnt out at work.

Then today I realized the reason for it. It made me think about the many changes that I might need for the future, and althought I might not like or 'think' I might not need some of them they are indeed a need.

I have changed from the mellow guy that I was and somehow grabbed on to a lot more responsabilities, and I've become the person which I've vowed never to become. The person which people look up to in a way. The 'leader' so to speak and although through out my life I've always been desiring that spot, now that I'm in the spotlight I've really don't want to be there. Not because I don't think that I can't do it, but because I wonder sometimes if I'm the best one for it. I mean, it's not like I've been the best or more goody-too-shoes of the bunch... hehe...

I've done so many... how can I put it... not good things in the eye of the 'normal' person that sometimes I have the doubt about it...

But then again I know that those doubts have been in anyone's head from time to time, and that I know that I can overcome them. Being that said and done, I guess the only thing that really matters now is the fact that next year I will move on forward and take the role that has been shown to me. From now on there's nothing more other than to lead on and accept the challenge...

=oP

Definitely '07 will be a fun year... I truly believe that I have cracked out of the shell and I now have to grow and learn what life is truly about... or at least MY life...

This is where I start to live...

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The more things change the more they stay the same...

I'm pretty sure that I've said this many, many times, but it was definitely today that it hit me, that a new year is upon us but nothing has changed. It dawn on me that for me it's probably always be the this way.

Whatever... I don't really care anymore if any at all.