The way things are

Things so far are ok, today I had a pretty chill day, after teaching all my classes I headed back home and crashed. Needless to say that I slept through Capoeira so I didn't even made any attempt to go down to the Mission. After finally uploading a couple of new/old pictures up on Flickr, D called me and we chatted for a while.

She's really feeling stressed out lately. It's hard 'cos I wanna help her somehow but I really don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel like I can't do anything but just listen and I dunno... It's hard, the other thing is that I feel that if I try to help her she's just not gonna want me to help her out. It's just like her to do that, hhhhmmmm... Oh well, I'm trying I guess the best I can do for now is just stand by her side and support her.

Lately I've also been stumped since I have no remote idea on what I'm gonna get her for her B-day. I'm definitely the worst person at giving gifts. Believe me when I say that I'm thinking over what to do. I guess it's gonna be one of those last minute, pray I will find something cool gifts... Ack! I'm trying to not do that. I'm in a bind...

Hhhhmmmmmmm...

Oh well, at least I still have a week or so to find something, I'm not stressing about it too much. Maybe I'll ask the girls to help me out, I'm pretty sure they'll give me some good ideas.

=oP

On certain occasions...

I remember why I care for you the way that I do...
I think of what we have been through, and what we are going through...
I ponder on the things we fight, and the things we agree on...
I believe the things that we promise each other, and the thing that we believe on...
I think of why I love you, and whether you feel the same deep down inside...
I say to myself that we are so different, but yet we somehow are together because life works in mysterious ways and we somehow fit together like two puzzle pieces...

I get reminded that you are the most precious thing in my life and because of you I am the happiest person in this planet...

=o)

Each day...

I wonder, and ponder... Where is this all leading to? What is the point? It would all be easy if I knew the answer to these questions, but as life is, the answer never comes around that easily. That's the whole point of life I guess, it's to just explore, take chances, risk what you got. A gamble in a sort of ways...

The other day someone asked me why I am still in the same place, why don't I just move on. I thought about it, and I couldn't answer that question. If I'm not happy then it's not worth it right? But what happends if I am happy even thought things are not quite working out? A weird position to be at, it's the fork on the road which we all have to take every once in a while I guess.

Sometimes I know I can be a hardheaded person, I know I could be better. I guess it's because I sometimes expect too much out of ppl. It's hard to sometimes express myself and let ppl know how I feel about certain things, but I'm trying. I wish I could just be worry free about the consecuence and just let it all out. Everything will come out in due time...

For now I'll just wait...

Rollercoaster

That's how it is... Up's and down's... Sometimes we fight, sometimes we have the best of times...

It's ackward... but for some reason we always stick together and we are always talking and hanging out.

I guess that's what I love about it, we're the same but at the same time we are different. We want all, but also nothing...

Ohhh... the complications of life...

=oP

Return of the G

Hehehe... I don't even know why the hell I put that title... Umm yeah ok, so maybe 'cos I wanted to make it sound 'cool'... eerrrr...

Anyhow I went back to training Capoeira, and well I might stick with it for a while(again), and man I know my legs are gonna be hurting a lot tomorrow. Oh well...

In other news, the new session started last Thursday and things are going well so far. I think it's also because I'm taking things more calm or something I dunno, but so far so good. It's been kinda amazing at how I've been able to manage the classes, uuuhhhh... I know I just jinxed(sp?) myself on that one, anyways well see what happends...

Also on the news, our batizado is gonna be on the 18th of November. Since we are also planning on doing a party for Yadi on the same day I have organized and set up the Capoeira party in conjunction to Yadi B-day/housewarming party... Uuuummm... I'm afraid now...

Oh well, last but not least D's back. I've got mixed feelings, I dunno part of me is happy but there the usual feeling that I don't wanna be around her for some reason. It's hard to explain, I guess I just have to make up my mind about things, and until I do it it will not be easy. The scary part is that I know what's need to be done, but I'm just in denial, and until I face that I'm screwed...

This sucks...

Oh fuck!!!

I'm soooo stupid... fucking eehhh... I almost screwed up everything, I was doing the numbers today and I'm so lucky that I found out that I had miscalculated my expenses. Almost... I almost went in the red by almost two hundred bucks... I'm so lucky I didn't fucked up...

That was a close call... I guess lately I've had a lot of shit on my mind and I'm so lucky I caugh it in time...

Gotta relax... gotta focuse more man... I'm losing my edge here...

=oP

Trying stuff...

Yeah I haven't tried blogging from within Flickr... Even though I set it up some time ago I just haven't had the time to even try to do it. But you know what?

That's right...

I'll try to start using it! Even thought I haven't uploading or used Flickr for some time now... man I've been lazy!

haha!

Why?

Hehehe... I wonder sometimes why stupid shit or not even stupid, just funny shit happen to me. For instance today on the train I was pondering on something which is suppose to be really important and I was worrying my balls off. I was worrying sooooo much that I didn't even realize when the lady that was sitting in front of me(yeah the one with the large bag!) stood up to get off the train and hit me(accidentally), in the balls...

Yup! Believe me, it hurted a lot and what's worse is that apparently the lady didn't even acknowledge what had just happend since she was worrying about getting off at the right stop.

Hhhhmmmmm... this is definitely a sign... A sign that I should stop worrying too much about stuff and just live life a little. Things take it's course for a reason, no matter what the outcome will be, I mean that's why it's fun to live it right? Heh!

On another note, today I had a great time hanging out with my roomies for a while. We usually don't get together to talk about stuff(since lately our schedules appear to be all over the place!), but today we just hanged out and talked smack for a while. I'm actually happy to have the girls(Yadi, and Sayuri) as roomies, they are down to earth and crazy in their own way. I like it, to me it is starting to feel like I'm at home, after all these months...

=o)

Back again!

So finally I think I'm ready, after my three day reclusiveness of the entire world(well almost), I am ready to get a move on things. This week the new session starts, and trust me when I say that it's gonna be a wild one. Oh yes... it will be a wild one...

I'm about ready to start biking my ass off into the mission, since I have decided to fix my bike once and for all. I'm gonna be dropping a lot of money on it but it's worth it.

Now that I'm back from the dead(so to speak) I'm realizing a lot of things, many good and many bad. I guess I just needed to keep myself down low for a little bit, guess it's sort of a meditation thingy or something... hehe!

Anyways I gotta get a move on. Gotta stop by the market to get some stuff also... hhhmmm...