Everything will float on alright!!!

Yup!

I do believe it!
Everything happens for a reason, and things will get better...

I know... things the last time I wrote anything on the blog things have been pretty much fucked up!!!

Let's see... Dad past away... M left for her adventure around the world... I almost broke my ankle... M's car got towed because of my fault(pretty much!)... This session at Acro has been shit!!!(I haven't been there half of it!)

Pretty much my life has come down to the lowest point at all... I've been trying to keep everything moving and trying to keep it at a high point, but it's just hasn't been working...

I wish M would be here by my side...
I wish my dad would be be alive and more supportive, and tell me that everything will be alright...
I wish my grannie would bitch me out because things are not alright...
I wish M would be a fucking bitch because I'm not responsible at all...(although I know this will never happen because she believes in me...)

...I know my life has a bigger meaning...

I need to find out what it is...

it's hard but I won't give up... I know I will find it...

I know I can get the car out...
I know M will come back and we can make this work...
I know I will face my biggest fear...
I know our kids will be superstars, and will overcome any obstacle...
I know we are meant to be together, and although I have been wrong before, this time I know that it's the right one...


By the way... thanks for believing in me Jodie... Thanks for trusting your kids to me... even thought I'm the biggest fuck up, I appreciate it. I have to admit that it's still a mystery why so many ppl trust me with their kids. I don't know anything about them... I just try my best to be one of them... I'm just trying to find happiness among them... I guess I'm just trying to be a big kid among them all...

Sad, but that's my life...

I'm a failure after all... just like my father.