Where is this great evil coming from???

Evil : (from the MERRIAM-WEBSTER Dictionary): 1 a : morally reprehensible : SINFUL, WICKED b : arising from actual or imputed bad character or conduct

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Although I've been trying to denied it, I've been trying to cope with this feeling for a long time...

I always thought I was a nice person and that I could tolerate anything but I can't...
It's eating me from the inside... It's tearing me apart... I need to do something... I need to...
I'm not the same person I was...

I feel my soul is slowly giving out...