30ish...

Yeah, it's nice to know that I made it this far.
I can't imagine how...
hmm...

Words in the wind...

Will everything we say fly out the window and catch the drift?
Will our actions forever brand our memories and make them catch fire.
Leaving ashes of sorrow and regret.
What happens when all our tears and screams go unnoticed?

Will anything of this matter in the end?

Suddenly...

Suddenly, like a wave crashing without warning.
The sudden gust of air lifts me up and makes me tumble in the air.
Like a train-wreck smashing down,
I see twinkles and stars, the realization of a new moment in time,
lost in the most deepest darkest corner of my mind.

Blindsided...

Out of the corner of my life,
someone who shows up like the sparkle from that fire.
But how will everything go?
Will someone please tell me how this story goes...

How to be cautious about this matter,
the story that repeats with each other.
Could it happen again?
A kiss and a goodbye,
until I see you my friend.

But if we try,
if we try,
we cannot deny
what we know deep inside

Oh the feeling of being blindsided,
something unexpected crashes
our mind jolts with joy
too many sparkles across the board...

Meh, meh... blah!

Just putting something... Not knowing what to type really. Just filling some space here. A monthly space filling post...

Just so that this month wont feel lonely because I didn't put anything in it. An entry to remind the blog that there is something to put in it. Even if it's just a blabbering post of nothingness...

Still it is occupying some space... so is it really nothing? Or is it just something that is just appearing to be nothing?!? How to take it? How to write it? A nothing or all situation, or maybe it's more like a half-situation... but if that's the case where is the medium?

Where do we draw the line on it?

Hhhhhmmmmm...

How to?

How to tell that special someone the feeling you have for them...
How to say I love you without feeling rejected...
How to express that someone is always in your thoughts and dreams without having them feel weird about it...
How to apologize for the mistakes in the past...
How to forgive without losing the love of your life...
How to love without remorse...
How to realize that the present is that and nothing else...
How to move on to the best thing ever, which is what you have now...
How to embrace it without any regrets...
How to have reservations about me, and make you realize that it's not about you...
How to tell you that you are everything in my life and I never meant to hurt you the way that I did...

How can I ask you to love me the way you did back when I ask you to kiss me for the first time?

Oh man...

Can't remember when was the last time I actually wrote on here. Might have been a few minutes ago, or it could have been maybe months... One thing is definitely for sure, things have changed. I have changed, times have definitely changed. It's crazy to see how things can flip at a blink of the eye.

Not much to do, except just keep on moving forward with the times.

Flippin' of the coin

Seem like every week is like a new flippin' of the coin. You never truly know which side is gonna face up. Is it gonna be the same as last, or are things gonna change?

What IF it lands in the middle? Might seem impossible but it is bound to happen some time. Am I really ready to go out there and face all this uncertainty right now? Prolly not, but then again you never know how you will react until you are thrown into the lions.

It's gonna be a long week... ugh!

A thought...

Too bad we always forget those little advices...

Those little bits of happiness and sparkles that would make our lives easier...

Why must we never have a pen and paper close to us when we need them?

I guess that's what makes the moment... the excitement and happiness of time!

The moment that you realize is gone, and cherish it in your memory, only to fade away

in the ripples of time...

Monthly Msg...

Blah!

Still kicking it around here, much happening, not as much writing...

At least not on the digital side...

meh!

Time to check in...

Well in the long standing tradition(about 3 months or 4)... I now type in the monthly post... Not much too report, well a few things but no biggies. Got bit by a dog, had the flu, bla, bla, bla...

Someday I will write again in my full glory... someday soon...

=oP

Oh! - 8...

Well not even two weeks into the year and already so much has happened.

Work is pretty good, although very tiring. I'm still trying to adapt to the hours, although not a lot has changed, I'm finding it hard to re-adapt to it. Ugh!

Also a blast from the past surprised me yesterday. It was a good surprise, but definitely I didn't see this one coming(hence... a surprise I guess, duh!). Anyways, yeah M came back and it's good. She brought Eisa back and it definitely brighten my day. It's interesting how someone can have an effect on another person's morale. More than a couple of peeps have told me I look better, even happier and energetic.

What can I say? The return of someone can make a difference...

Yup, it's gonna be an interesting year.

Wow...

Another monthly post...
Well, at least it's like a sign that I'm still alive and kicking it somewhere huh?
It's funny how things change over time, just a clear example it's this blog. Definitely it's one of the things that I have stopped doing a lot but that doesn't mean that I'm not keeping my thoughts from rambling out and about.

Wow...
Another year has gone by, and it was an interesting one indeed. In an interesting way, I guess I can say that I've grown. Left a lot of old things out there to the wind. Forgetting, but at the same time remembering them as I know that they are part of me, and I'm part of them.

A signature in a frame...
A smile to the wind...
Colors fading away in a stroke of time...
Tears that dried up long before they where ever shed...
Hope in the present,
dreams for the future.

It's gonna be a fun year!

The monthly post...

Well as it appears the blogger has been demoted to just having a couple of written post per month...

Yeah, yeah, I know I've been busy lately, and also I kinda picked up writing on paper a lot more. But things are ok, the usual ups and downs but I been able to cope with them a lot better.

Looking back on a lot of things this year has definitely been crazy. The best by far, so many down points, and I have been able to overcome them. For the first time in a long time I'm excited to see what the new year is gonna bring.

Of course... I gotta survive the last month of this one first...

=oP

Me and You...

I never meant
to hurt you tonite...
I never meant
to be so hard when I told you
I've got to move on...

I know you love me
with all of your heart,
But things are not easy and I understand that tonite.

WE might be the best thing
in the world,
but reality just won't let get us be there
right now...

I love you with all of my heart,
but tonite I know you have someone else in your heart...
In your heart...